My Life

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2011-05-19T16:23:00.000-07:00

It has been awhile since I wrote on my blog....So, I decided to post something early in the morning.

I woke up 5.30 in the morning....
I believed that would be a call from my heart...
There is something I need to figure it out...
Failure to do so may stuck in this black hole...

I am behaving weird recently....
I don't know why I behave in this manner...
Everything is so unfamilliar....

Hoping to find a solution for it....I have thought through for hours but it still effortless...
I guess it should be a nature behavior by people....
However, I am struggling between rationale and emotional aspects....
And I can't find a balance between them....
They are extreme opposite....

Looking at the mess...
Only few options I can do....
Value of mine is being tested....
Everything would be different if I made the choice....

Time is tickling....
Make your choice....
Don't regret after all....

The New Era

2010-08-13T20:22:00.000-07:00

The New Era has begun...
the entire new environment...
a place where all the people are strangers to me...
a place where there is no any things i familiar of...
a place where i need to start my new life here....

from my memory, i never been in this type of predicament before..
in secondary school, i had my primary school friends with me...
in college, i met some of my secondary school friends...
but now there is neither...

so i am a loner now...
almost all the time i am alone...
and i don like the feeling of being loner...
i realize that if i don start to talk to people....
they would not talk with me either...
it is time to change...

i start to approach people around me...
thanks god...making new friends is not really difficult...
it just requires some courage to talk with them...
and seriously, i enjoy to have new friends..
maybe that is my "something"

Keep Trying

2010-06-06T08:16:00.000-07:00

It is been awhile since my last post.
All I can say is I am still losing to my laziness.
I will need more will power in my degree studies.
I am not sure I can but I will try.

What make me suddenly think of my blog?
I shall say is the loneliness.
The rainy night is more likely to make me feel more lonely.
The level of loneliness is still not able to kill me.
The worst situation I experienced is that I was in a crowded place but I still feel lonely.
It wont be too worse if I starting doing to do something like making friends with the people around me but I dint.
Instead of making friends I choose to being tortured by lonely.
So, I think I had missed alot of things.
Things would be different if I try.
Even-though will face failure at first but stick to the golden rule.
Keep Trying...

Hate

2010-01-17T06:00:00.000-08:00

Hate....
It means feeling of dislike or hostility towards something...

Some people say that it appears after love is lost....
This usually happens inside the movie series as the ex-gf or bf take revenge on their ex partners...
It is actually a dumb thing. It will just make people hate them as well.
When you want a smile from one, the best way to get it is smile to the person first.
From my experience, this theory works...
So, I think do the good things and you will get good results while bad things always lead to bad results.

Hate something may not even necessary to have a reason...
People may hate things for no reason...
I do hate alot of things and the consequences are expensive.
For example, I hate my History teacher last time. It is very dumb for me to memorize those things that I don like just to show that I am not the bad student that mentioned by the teacher.
However, hate sometimes bring energy to move on with negative effects.
As I know that when people are dominated by the feeling of hate, they usually do irrational things and it always affects the health condition.

So i think we should avoid the feeling of hate. The world is full of love and fun. Hate will just bring our life into agony and miscery...

What you wanna do & What you did.

2010-01-09T06:41:00.000-08:00

A classic question: There are 3 birds on top of a house. 2 of them want to fly away. How many birds are there?
The answer is 3 birds. The birds just intend to fly away but they dint make it into actions. So, there are still 3 birds on the roof.

Sometime, we will do things that are against our will. For example, one guy want to become the top student in the class, but he just think for it and do not put any efforts on it. In the end, he still unable to become the top student.

Why is it so? Why people sometime cant get what they want?
I think just because they are lack of confident....
Sometime, we will have doubt on ourselves when we want to do something.
The doubt is the main reason that make most of the people common even though they may have a great ambition or dream.
The person may have doubt like:" I am not capable of doing this," "I will never make it," and others.
Those are typical coward thinking in our inner heart.
We need to be tough enough to ignore those coward thinking and continue what we want to do.
Once we do that, the dream or goal will never far from us.

Think and action are totally 2 different things.
So, dont just think or else we will miss many things that will make us regret.

Target

2010-01-02T05:44:00.000-08:00

Setting target is important for letting someone to achieve something...
Without target, someone may lost their direction...

However, target that is too ambitious may not be a good target as people may give up before reaching the target...
One of the most important criteria in setting target is reachable...
Our target should be basic step but not a big step....

Unless someone have strong will power if not ones shall never reach the ambitious target....

I admit that I don have strong will power...
I always give up my effort after sometime....

Maybe I should start with a small steps....
Step by step towards the greatest target....

Just my personal view~

2009-07-21T05:44:00.000-07:00

Coins have 2 sides....
Everything also have 2 sides just how we view it.....
Good or bad?
Right or wrong?
We should not judge people....
I think people do things with reasons....
and we should respect ones decisions....

If there is a thief, he stoles people properties to feed his 70 years old who are starving for few days....
What should be say about the thief?
There will be 2 ideas as he is a bad guy and he is good guy....
How can we judge the person?
In this situation, we know the reasons of why he behave in that way....
But in real life, things wont be so clear and just appear in front of our eyes.
Even we see somethings but the things also might not be the whole things....
Maybe we miss other parts of the things.....

I prefer on seeing the things on different views.....
I think there is no right or wrong....
A person may win support from majority of people but there will also people who do not agree with the person...
So what can we do?
Be a man, do the right thing?
What is the right thing?

Meet my new spectacle's box

2009-07-05T07:05:00.000-07:00

What is this?
Honestly, I was shock when I saw it....
Maybe a professional spectacle dealer can give us the answer....
Please look at the "O" logo in the center....
That is a logo for an Italy spectacle brand....
It is an Oakley spectacle box and it is different from other spectacle box that i had...
I bought this brand of spectacle because I like its logo.....
To but this spectacle, I need to pay a price that is not cheap for me....

Life

2009-06-27T06:51:00.000-07:00

I recently wondering how many years i still have in this world...
I feel that life is so fragile and short....
Life can be taken away with just a piece of tofu..
Life can be taken away in any unexpected moments, it may just happen when you are still sleeping on your bed....
No one can actually tell someone how long they can stay in the world....
Certainly there may be some fortunetellers who can predict the future...

I think we should appreciate that we are able to come to this world as there are many who dint make it and die in a very young age or even die in mother's body....
Although life is fragile but life also can be tough in certain way....
As we know that cancer can take people life....
but there are people who can recover from it with their strong will power...

In other cases, there are people who dont appreciate their life and do stupid things like commit suicide....
Someone: I don want to live anymore. I gonna to swallow whole bottle of Panadol. I want him/her to regret for the whole life. I don have anything that can make me want to live.
hmm...Why people just cant be more optimistic?
Those who commit suicide are ungenerous and unwise........
They only think of themselves.... They dint think about who bring them to this world and people who care about them....
They just don't think for other people....
If God close the door, God will open a window for us......
Everything has the solutions and dead is definitely not the solution .....
It may even makes the problem worse...

Life will not be perfect....
There must be something bad happen in our life.....
It may bring us pain, regret and many negative feelings....
but everything will be fine....
there are so many regret things in my life and i believe there will be more coming up....
Life is like a drama...
There will be an end for every characters and there will be new characters...
I hope that when my life come to the end, i still bring something good with me...
Good memory will do.....

Hero or Fool?

2009-06-23T08:14:00.000-07:00

hmmm....
have you all think the question : superheros in movie are heroes or fools?
For my opinion, they are heroes as well as a group of fools....
They save people's life...
These are so fantastic........They help those who are in trouble.....
But....
They are fools as they do all those things without getting any pay.....
Sometimes, they risks their life on rescuing people.....
Sounds stupid right?
What will they get?
They get nothing....
Maybe there will be people like them and respect them but in other hands criminals and bad guys will hate them.....
In the end, they get nothing....
Those are all volunteer works....They can refuse to help us but they dint....
If I were a superhero, will i choose to help people in need?
The answer is definitely a yes....
Even though it is only a hero with no salary.....
So, hero or fool?
It is not the matters anymore as long as can help people....
How can I aid you?

A wolf

2009-06-22T04:19:00.000-07:00

Let me write out my experience with my imagination...

There is an adult wolf which is 4 years old....
It has a different mind with other wolves in its pack...
It wants to be independent and hunt alone....
Without listen to its mother advice, the wolf insists to leave its family and hunts for its own...
The 4 year old wolf leaves its family and it seems so excited for its freedom....
It looks around searching for food.....
Then, it can see 2 rabbits was playing around not far away from him....
It move slowly approaching the rabbits and wish he could catch 1....
Unfortunately, the rabbits realize the wolf appearance and start to run in two different directions....
The wolf was so proud of its speed of running.....It chases after one of the rabbits but when it gonna catches the rabbits, it stops and changes its path to chase another rabbit...
In the end, it cannot not catch any of the rabbits as the rabbits are able to retreat to their burrows.
The wolf chooses to wait outside the burrow as it want the rabbit as its meal so much.
Inside the burrow, the rabbit is in fear and don't want to go out from the burrow.
So, patient is the key now....
Both animals are patient enough to maintain the situation until night........
That night is a full moon night. The wolf howls as loud as possible to release its impatience.....
Let me mention that howl of wolf is same as bark of dog.....
Woo......The wolf show anger, disgust and regret in its howl as well...........
The wolf also feels dissapointed for its hunt and walk away silently....
It feels ashamed to go back its family and choose to end its life on a cliff.....

hmm...that is the end of the story...hope you all can get what i meant....ahahaha....

Boring Saturday

2009-06-20T06:16:00.000-07:00

What a boring Saturday?
I don know what to do?
haiz....
I surfed on the net and finally found something that can get my attraction.....
It is a movie.....The movie called The Pursuit of Happiness...
It is a meaningful movie about a father working hard to pursuit happiness for his family.....
I think it is a great movie because it is able to get me to drop tears.....
Let me list out some sentences that I feel are nice....
Don't ever let someone tell you, you can't do something...
You got a dream; you got to protect it....

Happiness? I think all people have different definition for it........
Happiness can be very simple.....Some people can get their happiness with just having dinner with family everyday....
For me, it is quite hard to achieve as I wish I could bring happiness to people all around me.....
Maybe I could achieve this someday or maybe I will never make it....
There are mountains in front of my paths.....
GOD, please give me strength to climb....Let me able to climb over those mountains and reach the goal of happiness....
Work hard Oscar~~

Am I fake?

2009-06-18T08:04:00.000-07:00

Am I fake?
P.Boy Dickson: "Hmmm.....Can you change your question?How true are you?" ==''
S.Hai Alvin: "I will not answer your questions."suak..
BB.Bear: "From the day I met you till now you are a faker.You praise people are not sincere at all"
This conclusion from this 3 people is that in the eyes of them I am a faker....
Is that true?
I don't know.....
Maybe they are right but I feel myself can considered as a true people....
I dint smile in front with a guy but back stab him at the back....
I have no ideas why they feel I am fake....
Is it possible that because "fake" is on my forehead?
Or because I always say that I am an Oscar's awards winner?
hmm.....Maybe i shouldn't think too much and let it be....
I am fake??

Water, I want water......

2009-06-17T09:10:00.000-07:00

Today morning when chickens haven crow yet I have already wake up by my grandfather ...
it was just 6.45am....
argh....i wished i could just laid on my bed for 1 more hour....
with lots of unwilling ,i drag myself from my bed, bath, breakfast and fetch my grandfather all the way to tempoyak where his old house is situated....
it is in rural area where you can see mountain that full of fruits trees....
the king of fruits is the reason why i need to wake up so early....
we wet there to bring some durians home....wohoo...
after drop my grandfather, I drive my way back to my new house....
look at the clock .....8.15am...
luckily mr alvin lim comes out aas the savior of the day to fill up my time

in the college, somehow I feel pity and sorry for my csc and enl lecturers....
enl, there were only few students and after the break, half of the students were gone....
they were going to take the certificate....and poor oscar he dint do well llast sem....
furthermore, still let 1 fake ppl suan siao him....
the ppl who has mole(s) on her finger(s):" eh why you not going with them?
arghh.....she was just like my statistic lecturer yesterday....
"next test take full marks let me see ok?" yeew....
csc, i noticed that everyone were doing their own thing wihout listening to her speech....haiz student nowsadays....

ok back to the main topic...
I only brought 1 bottle of water with me....
the water I brought was obviously not enough for me....
I feel so uncomfortable when I am home....
I drink lots of water and the condition still do not turn better....
So, I go for a nap....
after 2 hours, I awake and realize that i have a sore throat...
someone help me please....

CYWYN

2009-06-16T05:42:00.000-07:00

2 days ago, this combination of alphabets suddenly appears in my 20 inch monitor......it is from mouse hunt...
.although i was not willing to enter this combination of alphabet but maybe i shall accept it as the sign from GOD?CYWYN, i think all my college classmates will know what it means. so, i will not spend time on explaining it and i don't want to.....
sadness, disappointment, happiness and relief are all making my feeling more complicated.
what can i do?
now, i have 2 options to select.
i can either choose to live with sadness or hapiness.....
i shall choose the happiness.....life is still continue no matters i feel happy or sad......
maybe i can carry it away with just a smile.....
the smile that i always have on my face.....
i am satisfy with the ending.........
it sounds unbelievable but really i am quite satisfy with this ending.
i am fine with the ending....a ending that similar with what i have thought before....
hope GOD will bless you~
Elle a l'air d'un ange.....